A New Start.

Wow, so much has happened since my birthday. I'm not quite sure where to begin.

I guess I can start by saying I am still single. =] Which I don't mind a bit, I actually love it this way... Levi moved to Nasheville a couple weeks ago for College, and our "frienship" since then hasn't really existed. I guess this is the way God wants it, though I was really starting to enjoy being able to have a frienship with him. Right before he left though, he got a tattoo on the inside of his arm, and I pierced my belly button! This summer so far has been nothing but random acts of spontanuity [however it is you spell taht]... and I absolutely love it.

For instance, Jessica came back into town about a month ago and we went to visit Katie and the baby, and while sitting there we saw a commercial for Carowinds and decided to go that very next morning. We were fortunate enough to stay with Andy and Eden [my best friends in Concord] while we were there, and because of this one silly little decision to go have a fun weekend, it turned into a serious discussion of me moving in with them for school in the fall. A discussion that lasted for a few weeks, and then I decided to go down there again on my following weekend I had off from work, and the discussion turned into a for sure decision. They have a newborn baby boy named Noah, he is absolutely adorable, and they are two of the best people I know. My reasons for moving there are far beyond what I could list, but mostly because of the opportunity there. I stayed here, worked my ass off, and supported myself for nearly a year, but didn't really get anywhere except the simple reward of knowing I could do it on my own, I just don't wanna be a CNA for the rest of my life. Living with them would give me people to go to when I had difficulty with school, or stress at whatever job I will be doing while living there, without constantly worrying about paying every bill, and barely making enough to survive. I want to try something new. I am constantly living my life as a routine, and now that I am completely single with no romantic attachments, I have finally learned to love myself, and appreciate my abilities in life, and I believe that I can stretch those abilities far more, in a place with much more room for my creativity and love for helping others. I don't know if that sounds a little bit stuck up, but I truly believe that this is what God wants for me. He only knows how much I have prayed about this decision, and I feel as long as I live here, I am going to be suffocated from stretching my wings as far as they CAN take me. Who knows, I could be completely wrong, but at least I will know I tried. So I have given my work notice, and my last work day will be July 27th, then after that, it's all about moving. Moving on, and moving into my new setting. In two weeks or so I have a job interview, and I have applied to school for the fall semester, so hopefully things will finally start to get going for me, I don't like feeling like I'm not getting anywhere, especially when I work so hard to do so. There will be many many things I will miss about living here though, and I have beat myself up about it all the time. But I know deep down this is my home, always will be, and what's meant to be will always find it's way.

I will need all the prayers, support, and encouragement I can get! Thank you for those who have supported me nomatter what, you are what makes it hard to leave. And I mean it.