you can't swim in a town this shallow.

Yes, I realize how long it has been.

Life, has been absolutely crazy, yet wonderful. I finally finished school, and also am finally starting to love living in Charlotte, yes i said it :) Lots of things have changed since I last wrote, so lets catch up shall we?

Harmon and I decided to officially not be together anymore a few months ago. This was a very mature decision on our parts I believe, because despite the fact that we still loved each other more than either of us could describe, we knew it was the best thing to do for ourselves as individuals. We are fifteen different kinds of wrong for each other, and although it was a hard fact to face, I was grateful for the relationship we had and all the good things that came along with it.

Most of my changes in my life recently have come as a result of my involvement with my church here. I couldn't ask for a better church. I started going to the college group meetings every sunday night, which is now known as C4 (don't ask questions, this is for future reference haha).... Immediately I met incredible people and began to form close relationships and bonds with them. We are all so different in many ways, yet we all get along so well. A lot of people giggle or assume things when I say that I'm hanging out with my church friends. But seeing us out in public you would never think that's strictly what we were, we try to get together as a group throughout the week on multiple occasions whether it is to watch a movie or go to dinner, or even go dancing. It is amazing to me that God has finally put people in my life that understand me, and love me for who I am. I couldn't ask for a better group of friends. I went from having one real friend (Harmon) to having nearly 30 people at my birthday dinner! I am still shocked as to how this happened, but could not be more thankful for Mosaic. Through working with the 2 and 3 year olds there and the worship, and the college group I can honestly say it has changed my life completely, for the better. I have been unshakably happy, even through hardships and bad news. I really do feel like a completely new person. I finally feel like my move to Charlotte was a very good decision, and I no longer feel it was a mistake.

With new friends, comes new men haha. Not only that really cute, motivated, smart men! I have formed close relationships with some of the guys in the group, but there was one guy in particular that caught my eye. His name is Trey. He is my age, blonde, in really good shape, and is extremely smart. I have never found so many what would normally be "pluses" is one guy. Our friendship bloomed immediately and eventually became more than a friendship. Although I knew in the back of my mind that I was not ready for another relationship, I thought that maybe through time it would grow on me and it would end up being the best decision of my life. So I took a chance, and started dating Trey. In the time that we dated/talked he took me to a nascar race, a jason aldean concert, a brad paisley concert, cooked me home cooked meals, bought me flowers, made my bed in the morning with a personalized note, sent me beautiful text messages throughout the day... everything a girl could ever want, right?? I thought that's what I wanted, but throughout the few weeks we were together it became more apparent to me that what I really needed was to breathe. To be single, and improve my relationship with myself and with God before I get into anything serious again. I know that I let go of something I may never have back again, but I know it was the right decision, and I hope that it doesn't make things awkward within the group. Hopefully maturity will be a major factor in this situation and we can maintain a strong friendship, because I know if we can manage we can be amazing friends, for a long time.

Other than that, there have admittedly been some pretty rough things going on in my life. My sister was in a 4 car pileup last week and totalled her car, but luckily was not injured at all. I have never been so scared and it made me realize just how bad off I would be if something happened to one of my sisters. I am so thankful nothing happened to her. Not long after this my grandmother (who has been in and out of the hospital with C. Diff since last year) had what seemed to be a stroke and was rushed to the hospital. No signs of paralysis were present and she was released home and then was back in the hospital within days. She is still there, and I don't think I have stopped praying for her. I am so scared and yet hopeful that things will get better for her, they have to. She is the strongest woman I know, and with my grandfather's support I know she can do anything, and will.

So right now I am praying for my family, I actually get to go visit them in a matter of hours and could not be more excited. I am also enjoying this time for myself, and thanking God every day for my many many blessings. It is incredible how much he has done for me lately.