exponentially blessed.

I was reading an excellent book yesterday, and it dawned on me that I hadn't written not one thing in this thing in months possibly. I also decided that everytime I am faithful to a blog, it seems to soothe and calm me as I write, so I decided to get started on that again, so I apologize for the long hiatus.

I'm finally starting to figure out life again. The fact that it's okay, and better in fact, to be single. That it's okay to hurt, and even most importantly that I am nobody without God's guidance and support. He had done major wonders in my life these past few months.

Looking at my last entry, the last thing I wrote was that me and Levi were over, I had found someone new, and my sister had moved in with me. Currently my sister is STILL living with me, which is getting better everyday, I don't know what I would do without her here with me. Me and Levi are still over, although he is trying significantly hard to get me back. I have been doing very well with turning him down though, it's like I have no feelings or sympathy anymore, which makes it fairly easy to just say no, which has always been my issue until now. I am trying to sustain a healthy friendship with him, some days it works, others not so much. Now the new guy didn't exactly work out for me, nor would I have expected it to. I guess God just wants me for himself these days, and that is perfectly fine with me. As long as all these shallow cold hearted jerks keep bouncing in and out of my life, God isn't gonna have to share me for a long time =]. I have never ever been this okay with being single, I actually love it. I am getting more time to myself, with God, and with my friends. It's so relaxing and enjoyable.

I am still working like a slave though. It is seriously physically and mentally killing me. I don't know how much more I can take, so I am currently job searching for something closer to town, and less demanding on my body. Being this stressed all the time is not healthy, especially when I am finally doing so well in every other aspect of my life.

Last but not least my latest praise is for Alicen Elizabeth Neiswonger. She was born May 15th of this year, and is the new light of my life. Her mother has become my best friend, and her two older brothers are my saving grace. I don't know what I would do without this family in my life, I thank God for them everyday! Here is a beautiful picture of the new addition to their family, and my life, and also a picture of the two best big brothers she could ask for! =p.


alicen.


maxwell.


elijah.


Wow, even through all the circumstances, I am still exponentially blessed =]