homesick.

Once again, it has been way too long since I updated.
This time it was out of pure laziness, although my life has been pretty hectic considering.

Since I last wrote I...

* Got me a boyfriend (Harmon Gibson)
* Fell in love with him =]
* Fell even more in love with Noah Carter (the baby)
* Have been working like crazy
* Joined a gym
* Got a personal trainer
* Came home a few times and cried when I had to come back
* Dropped my phone in the toilet
* Had some problems with my roommates

and many, many other things that aren't that interesting.


I guess I can start with the boyfriend, Harmon. We met actually because his younger brother, James is one of my patients. James has been my patient since I moved here and we, as well as I and his family have all gotten extremely close. A few months ago Harmon actually asked me to hang out one night, and that turned into another night and another and another. I couldn't help but fall for this guy, and as of September 19th we started officially dating. I haven't been this happy in a long time, and he never ceases to amaze me. He treats me like I'm worth something. He respects me and supports everything that's important to me, loves and respects the people that I do, and he is the most outgoing person I have ever met. He went back home to the mountains with me the last time I went, and I couldn't have asked for a better weekend. We stayed with Katie, and because of that he had the opportunity to get to know my second family on a better level, and understand why her and her children mean so much to me. I introduced him to quite a few people that weekend and not one person didn't love him! And that blew my mind, because that has never happened in the past. He was so outgoing and happy to be alive and was more than happy to meet everyone important to me, happy to be in Waynesville with me! It was a fantastic weekend and ended on an even better note. I was having a hard time the night we were leaving because I wasn't ready to leave. On the way out I took him up to the cross at Lake Junaluska because he hadn't yet seen it at night. We stood out by the cross and looked out on the lake and he stood in front of me and thanked me for the wonderful weekend. Then I spilled, I said, nooooo thank you! You absolutely blew my mind this weekend, you were so perfect, and thank you so much for being so great about everything! I love that you helped the blind woman at the game, I love that you played with Eli and Max, I love that you this and that and kept on. He finally interrupted me and looked at me in the eyes and said, "Well I love you."

Wow.

Needless to say I was caught completely off guard and extremely shocked. But I knew right then and there he was right. We had fallen in love, and that particular weekend proved it. It was the best weekend and night of my life, and since then life has been amazing for me. I have been blessed with a guy who loves me for who I am, and loves every part of it!! Not only that his family loves that we are together and I have grown especially close to them as well, and mine and his brother (my patient)'s relationship gets stronger everyday. Sooo... I am in love, madly, and thank God everyday for this blessing I call the Gibson family!!!

...On another note. I am not doing so well as far as my roommates go. They are planning to move at the end of the semester, leaving me with no place to go, and that has created quite a bit of tension in the house. Harmon and his family are trying really hard to help me figure out a place to live, but it's still very stressful and something I wish I didn't have to deal with right now.

What doesn't help more than anything is the fact that I am so homesick. Other than the amazing boyfriend and his family I don't really have anyone here in Concord, and it's been very hard on me. I'm just hoping everything will soon work itself out...






I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now